it's 11.55pm on the 19th of august.
rite.i dont really sure that i should do this.but im deadly in a disappointment.why? i dont know.fine it really started since the first day i came back home.i felt very2 uneasy with myself.i dont know and i tried to cheer up myself infront of my family.unsurprisingly 2 days being at home makes me sick and hey im bored to death.maybe terperok the whole day in my room dumps me in this bad mood day.not only today! i've asked a few friends to hangout with.and as usual,some of them just said "oh nanti dulu.aku confirm later." haha.i wasnt expecting EVERYone to at least accompany me.
fine.here it goes.
"kau merajuk? sorry!"
me: "oh.takdelah.tak kuasa nak layan rajuk.ok je."
what? do you expect me to tell them the truth? i dont know.maybe its just me being wrong here.i ALWAYS have problems.didnt i? old and new.they're just the same.invited the other person and they gave me the same answer.so,i tried to calm myself and decided to go on my own.WITHOUT anyone.yes,sure i can do that.even i've done that for a few times without my mom's knowing.
next,tersebut2 IMmed me.at first it was just a normal chit-chatting.but he suddenly came up with my 'stubborn' attitude.haha.yes,i admit.changes matures you.but do i have the courage to change? the answer is,absolutely no.for all that i've gone through alone,i dont think i could bare it enough to stand by my own.he said that i worries someone when i'm too quiet.huh.it's difficult being amal.yes.i am stubborn.do understand that,please.so i think that i am a hypocrite person,eyh?
yeap.i am.i cant show my anger in front of everyone.im not strong enough to confess or to express my inner side feelings.makan dalam beb.i kept almost everything big to myself.although there ARE some matters that i told them.
hah.all these are making me better,though.
continue!
zulaika.i've asked her out.she said yeap,she's fine with it.but suddenly she cant make it.fine.nurul.she's innocently enough to ask her mom's permission.hah.azzahir.nah.he's BUSY enough with his own life.so i shudnt disturb him.muhammad.no comment.muhd.he's always busy with that particular organisation.go on.liana.hmm.i cant comment on her much.amirah.takkan la nak paksa.same goes to nabilah.daughter of che.oops.i DID asked her once.others? well².supposed my holidays are meant to spend with my family eh?
wait.abah.outstation.mama.busy till the end of ablong's wedding.ablong.good enough he's married to kak nurul.cant bother him much.iya.er.nothing much.so tell me how do i spend my holidays with my family?
please.schooling days: jailed in that buildings consist of only hostel and academic's block.
holidays: stuck home? oh no!! :((
friends if you read this,oh it's actually nothing.it's better for me to luah it out than to pendam.kan anwar?
still finding ways to meet with those sisters.
↑they who cheers me up↓
is that all? tata.nite.
rite.i dont really sure that i should do this.but im deadly in a disappointment.why? i dont know.fine it really started since the first day i came back home.i felt very2 uneasy with myself.i dont know and i tried to cheer up myself infront of my family.unsurprisingly 2 days being at home makes me sick and hey im bored to death.maybe terperok the whole day in my room dumps me in this bad mood day.not only today! i've asked a few friends to hangout with.and as usual,some of them just said "oh nanti dulu.aku confirm later." haha.i wasnt expecting EVERYone to at least accompany me.
fine.here it goes.
"kau merajuk? sorry!"
me: "oh.takdelah.tak kuasa nak layan rajuk.ok je."
what? do you expect me to tell them the truth? i dont know.maybe its just me being wrong here.i ALWAYS have problems.didnt i? old and new.they're just the same.invited the other person and they gave me the same answer.so,i tried to calm myself and decided to go on my own.WITHOUT anyone.yes,sure i can do that.even i've done that for a few times without my mom's knowing.
next,tersebut2 IMmed me.at first it was just a normal chit-chatting.but he suddenly came up with my 'stubborn' attitude.haha.yes,i admit.changes matures you.but do i have the courage to change? the answer is,absolutely no.for all that i've gone through alone,i dont think i could bare it enough to stand by my own.he said that i worries someone when i'm too quiet.huh.it's difficult being amal.yes.i am stubborn.do understand that,please.so i think that i am a hypocrite person,eyh?
yeap.i am.i cant show my anger in front of everyone.im not strong enough to confess or to express my inner side feelings.makan dalam beb.i kept almost everything big to myself.although there ARE some matters that i told them.
hah.all these are making me better,though.
continue!
zulaika.i've asked her out.she said yeap,she's fine with it.but suddenly she cant make it.fine.nurul.she's innocently enough to ask her mom's permission.hah.azzahir.nah.he's BUSY enough with his own life.so i shudnt disturb him.muhammad.no comment.muhd.he's always busy with that particular organisation.go on.liana.hmm.i cant comment on her much.amirah.takkan la nak paksa.same goes to nabilah.daughter of che.oops.i DID asked her once.others? well².supposed my holidays are meant to spend with my family eh?
wait.abah.outstation.mama.busy till the end of ablong's wedding.ablong.good enough he's married to kak nurul.cant bother him much.iya.er.nothing much.so tell me how do i spend my holidays with my family?
please.schooling days: jailed in that buildings consist of only hostel and academic's block.
holidays: stuck home? oh no!! :((
friends if you read this,oh it's actually nothing.it's better for me to luah it out than to pendam.kan anwar?
still finding ways to meet with those sisters.
↑they who cheers me up↓
is that all? tata.nite.
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