a long way to go.

hey :)

i dont know if there is still someone who reads my blog.seems like it has been a long time that i updated this thing.

i dont know how to blog anymore.

i dont know what to type

i dont know what to tell.

tell me, am i feelingless?

i dont care about myself anymore.

i dont really contact with my friends anymore

i dont this and i dont that.

why is this happening?

i read someone's blog and i realised.

for those who i refer as friends,

i dont know if i have lots of them.

but i can say that i dont have lots of friends.

yes.cuz i sucks.

i dont know how to be a friend.

i dont act like one.

am i depressed?

for what?

for my results?

and oh i think that is the absolute reason why i am

becoming a negative person.

now i realise, i faked my life.

i faked my personaliy.

i faked everything.

deep inside, i am not a cheerful person.

deep inside, i am not a talkative ones.

deep inside, i am not really a friendly person.

deep inside, i dont really smile a lot.

i am regretting for what i've done before.

if i stayed for the last 2 years within my childhood friends,

could i have better result?

could i have changed so much?

i regret.yes, i regretted.

why should i whine now?

i didnt make any effort to change myself.

i didnt make any effort to be better.

if you see me laughing out loud,

im telling you,its not me who is laughing.

and this is me.with the mood swings.

adakah ini balasan kerana aku tak menjaga hubungan aku dengan Allah?

kerana aku tak menjaga hubungan aku dengan mama, abah,?

kerana aku tak menjaga hubungan dengan kawan2 aku?

kerana aku tak menjaga hubungan antara rohani dan jasmani aku sendiri?

doakan supaya aku sentiasa sedar akan diri sendiri.

-striving to be a better worshipper, a better daughter, a better friend,

to lead a better life.